When the Going Gets Tough...

The tough get a fever.

This week was hard in so many ways and so many levels. Personally, physically, mentally, emotionally, professionally... any way you can think of, life got hard this week. It took every ounce willpower in me to coach myself through each moment, each conversation and to be patient and kind to myself and with others as I went through the week. I had to force myself to be fully present in each individual moment, because if I even tried to think one step ahead of myself, well, I wouldn't have been able to make it. And at the end of the week, my body couldn't take anymore and I had a fever and a swollen throat and slept on my couch because I couldn't even make it to my bed.

But here's the cool part.

I also had a lot of really amazing moments happen too. Lots of authentic and candid conversations that wouldn't have happened otherwise. A great night with a friend I haven't seen in over 2 years. A trip to the beach. Exploring new areas of my city. Lots of laughter. And moments of kindness and patience with myself that I normally haven't been okay giving myself.

And that's what matters. And that's what's going to get me through.

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